Post by Lisa Vicious on May 16, 2006 18:15:32 GMT -5
Does it matter what I don't say?
I still feel the same way,
I don't know what is what and what goes up-just sorta floats there.
I waste my time my mind my days
crashing pill parties on a diet of self-destruction I live...
feast or famine
I'll take the most lethal injection
to add endorphines
double the morphine
cuz I still see the sun.
Fucked and I love you like something that's beyond this world,
I need to reinvent you as something unattractive to me,
I need to be with you
so I can finally be me.
Oh sacred lies
I tell myself lies and pretend that you're here
to take away my depression
it conceals my fear--
fear of being lonely alone left …left out in their world.
I fear their world and in yours I thrive.
It's only for you that I want to live...love...die.
